This space has made my nights feel less lonely.

I have failed at the constant updates of my adventures, pardon me for I am not one who religiously write and post. I'd like to tell you about how I am an adult now, or how I've managed to go on a dive adventure. But I'm stuck at life's crossroad and I know that it sounds crazy but sometimes when I think about it, I feel the need to scream so hard to get it off me.

What is this thing that I'm feeling so strongly? A sense of desperation to seek for something bigger.

I feel my mechanism beneath me reacting, pulsating.
I play a song.
The song makes me dance a kind of dance in my head.
Dancing alone my eyes closed. Moving like a dream, like a child lost in time.
I feel alive,
I feel infinite

I don't want it to stop.
Please don't,
stop